Well, we have our good days and we have our bad days. Unfortunately, today is one of those bad days. The weather explains my heart quite well :( Its a rainy, stormy, cloudy day. We haven't got the full results back from the MRI. There was a radiologist that gave the results to our neonatologist who shared them with us. I heard that the news wasn't so good, so I kinda blocked everything out of my mind he said afterward. 1st of all, Ella's brain did begin bleeding. They think it has stopped but it caused the ventricles to swell in her brain. If this swelling does not stop, they'll have to put shunts in her brain. If this makes no sense to you, it doesn't to me much either. It just sounds bad. Anyway, she has had an intracranial hemorrhage that is a level III. level I and II mean no damage has been done. Level IV means a lot of damage has been done. Level III is a big unknown. There is definitely a possibility that minimal damage has been done, but there is possibly a chance that damage has been done. My doctor, Dr, Hager, came by and gave us much comfort after hearing this disappointing news. She said "Numbers are just numbers. Each baby is different. Don't write Ella's story." We also had an awesome nurse who said she has worked a number of years in the NICU and said to never give up. She has seen these things mean absolutely nothing. We can't go off of these results and be upset. We will have a pediatric neurologist look at the MRI and hopefully he can give us some more definite answers. He'll either read the scan tomorrow or on Saturday.

I'm trying to remain optimistic. Holding sweet Ella lifts up my heart so much. She looks so good and in every other area she is rocking right along. I've had some very encouraging verses and words sent out to me today. Thank you dear friends! I know God will be glorified. I keep seeing this image of little Ella being like 6 years old and telling her awesome story. I see her being loud and spunky ;)

Sorry if I don't answer phone calls or respond to messages. Right now, its not easy to talk about it. Thanks for your continued prayers. Love you all!